'M' Day

Tomorrow is 'M' day. It's the third 'M' day since starting trying to conceive and there is still nothing to show for it. I can not celebrate tomorrow for myself. Am I expected to call my friend that lives across the street, 24 weeks pregnant? 

I don't know if I can. 

I don't know if I can.

Tomorrow I am going to the beach with my Mom and pray that she doesn't want to talk about me. You know she actually said to me the other day, "Have you considered the possibility that this just isn't going to happen for you". Is she kidding me? That would mean that we are giving up and that we are not going to have biological children, ever. That's a lot of grief, of course I have not considered it. Because I still have hope. We still have hope. How can my Mother say that to me? Does that mean she has stopped believing? Stopped supporting? 

Tomorrow is going to be a long day. . .

I hope the new mothers that I know have a wonderful 'M' Day tomorrow. I really do.