Merry CHRISTmas!

Merry Christmas!


Good Morning! It is 5:50 on Christmas morning and I am wide awake. I don't know if the insomnia is back or I am just excited about Christmas but we didn't go to bed until 1:00 am and I can't go back to sleep. 


I keep thinking about the sermon for Christmas Eve service last night and I must share what I took from it with you. It spoke to me very loudly last night. It was mostly about joy and that those who have lived in darkness have seen a great light.


"Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring to you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord." Luke 2:9-11


Good tidings of joy. . . Joy should and can be in our hearts this Christmas; despite the pain, the suffering, the emptiness, and the loneliness that plagues us all around this time each year. Yes, this year is different for me, I am happy. But happiness is just happenstance it is not joy. Rejoice in that God sent us a savior because we, I, need to be saved! Saved from the wanting, and the jealousy, and the sinning. I feel guilty that I  did not stop and fully appreciate the meaning of Christmas the last few years and why? Because I thought I could only find joy if I celebrated Christmas by getting a BFP or rubbing my pregnant belly? Jealousy and despair consumed me so much that I forgot to rejoice in the fact that there is a great light shining down on me. I would know good tidings of joy because God gave his only begotten Son to save me and that he did. 


It is my Christmas wish that you find joy this holy-day season for God will answer your prayers. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I love you all.