Becoming another angry infertile

Ok, so what is up with my charts, I swear every month I am going to get a tri-phasic chart and then I still get BFN's. This time my temperature is still up and I am at 13 dpo. I thought for sure it would drop this morning since yesterday I got a BFN. Why do I test when I know I am not supposed to? I ask this question every month too. I guess I still have a little bit of hope since my temps are still way above the coverline. I am testing again tomorrow morning if my temps are still up, I am sure I will test anyways since I am a POASaholic.

I am starting to get really frustrated and angry now because it seems we are doing everything right but still failing. I have prayed so hard for a baby and given it to God to do. I can't help but feel like he isn't listening to me anymore even though I know that isn't true. How can I one keep their head up when the weight of the world is on their shoulders. Ugh when will this journey be over and I can start a new one. A family of 3 or more!