Coming out of my dark and twisty place

I am out of my dark and twisty place, AF is gone and I am feeling good. I got to see and hold my friends 1 week old baby this morning for an hour. Now I smell like baby and have a new fire to conceive. He was so cute! I thought it would be hard seeing him but it was so easy to love him and not feel any resentment toward my friend for being so damn fertile and producing this beautiful baby. As of now I am in the different 2 ww and it is already too long. I will post pictures of the baby when I get home tonight.