One day you will
It always bothered me or made me jealous when I would read an infertility blog and then they got pregnant. Some times I continued to follow their journey into parenthood other times I moved on. I hope I don't make any of you leave but if you do stop reading my posts I completely understand. I have been there, I have been in your shoes. This post is for you so I hope that you read it.
Dear those of you still on the journey to your baby,
We all have that song or that quote that get us through the really rough times of infertility. I did. It is "One Day You Will" by Lady Antebellum, I suggest you listen to it as soon as you are done reading this. Here are some of the lyrics:
You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now
Chorus
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now
Chorus
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet
Infertility is such a lonely and isolating place that nobody understands unless they have been there. I always felt like I was falling backwards and just moving through life one day at a time but not enjoying it anymore. Every time I listened to this song it inspired me to remember that failure is not fatal, I will get through this and one day I will find peace. I will never forget the struggle of infertility and the pain it caused everyday of my life for almost 3 years. One day I know all of you will find peace and will be the mothers you are meant to be. Keep believing that and inspiring each other to continue. As Winston Churchill said, "...it is the courage to continue that counts."
Love,
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6 lovely notes from friends:
Erin that was such a sweet post! I have heard other women mention that they were jealous or upset about another infertile getting pregnant but I have to tell you, I am always truly thrilled! I see it as a victory for all of us. Anyone who has been down this infertility road knows how physically and emotionally draining it can be. While I do wish that I was pregnant now, I know that there are those who have struggled just as much if not more than I have. And you are right, one day we will all become the mothers we are meant to be!
Well said... It is so hard for others to understand what it is like to struggle with infertility. I am so glad I have had such encouragement on my blog as I have been going through IVF... Thank you for being there for me. Even more last night when I was freaking out at 12:00am!!
Thank you for thinking of us that are still struggling. I am very happy for you and will continue to follow your journey!!
I really liked that you are still thinking of us other gals out there still hoping and praying, thanks! You are too sweet. We are going on two and a half years now and I am still having to wait another year to go back to the Doc for our first IUI. So I keep on moving through...praying and hoping. Thanks again for your kindness.
Thank you for this post. :) I will continue following your journey. I'm not jealous you are pregnant because you are one of us...and you deserve it! God chose it to be YOUR time right now, and we will all follow closely behind. :) Much love!
These words give me chills. I think all of us with IF that get pregnant and stay pregnant wish the same for everyone in the IF journey. Just because we have a baby or about to have a baby, the scars of IF never go away.
Thank you this post.
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