Who is this woman?

I feel like someone else has taken over my body and is the one saying "I'm pregnant". This is not me, I was not ever going to be able to say those words. That is what I felt and thought for a very long time. I don't know where I belong at the moment. I am pregnant but still an infertile, can I rejoice yet or is it too early? It still seems so surreal. I have some people in my life telling me I should have waited until after the first trimester before I told anyone. But I have waited 30 months to tell my family and those that have been there routing us on that I am pregnant. I wanted to share that with them, they have been on this road right along side us through all the ups and downs. Every time I called a family member to tell them they would start screaming into the phone and rejoicing, then we would cry together. I have waited, they have waited, for that moment for a very long time. It was just as I imagined it. My Grandmother is still hoping for another set of twin grandchildren, I hope and pray I can give them to her. 


Every time The Captain rubs my belly, smiles and says it is his lucky charm(s) I think I am going to burst. My heart is busting at the seams with joy. He used to tell me every time we had a BFN that "the day we get pregnant all this pain will just disappear and there will be so much joy you won't remember any of this". He was right to a degree, there is a ton of joy but I won't forget what we went through to get here. That is what will make me a better mother. 


I am a mother, holy moly.